“Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.”
For many of that aren’t aware, I’m currently in college. I’m studying youth ministry at Grace Bible College. It’s a great place, people here are welcoming and kind, the community is nice, and the professors are awesome, down to earth people that genuinely care about the students and want them to succeed. Although, Grace is an amazing place, I still struggle a lot with school. Not because I am incapable, but because I quickly become overwhelmed and tear myself down. Last semester was tough for me, I was doing good until I began questioning myself whether or not I was capable enough to make it through college. I let myself become a victim of my own mentality. I was telling myself that I wasn’t good enough to stay in school. I let myself become lost in a sea of dark waters caused by the poison of my negative thoughts. Let that sink in for minute. How many times have we become subject to our own negative thoughts? Thoughts that get in the way of our happiness, success, and even quality of living.
I’m not the type for the whole “New year, new me” thing, however I did decide to try something different this year that has benefited me greatly so far. I got a small little notebook and in the notebook I write about what speaks to me. I’ve written some ideas for new blog posts, scriptures that are edifying to me, and some really sweet quotes about the Christian life. It’s been helping me keep my mind off the bad things and it really makes me think about a lot of good things.
Something else I also started was a new prayer that has totally caused some change in my life. I’ve been praying for God to make me more aware of my emotions and to teach me how to let them go appropriately so that I can be lead by His spirit. It’s made me have a more thankful outlook on my life.
And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me”. Luke 9:23
It’s been my continuous prayer and it’s really helped. It’s made me realize how often I let myself be guided by my emotions instead of God. I encourage to anyone who also struggles with the battle against negative thoughts to try this out and perhaps to those looking for a sense of direction. Enter through the gates with thanksgiving. God is faithful, He will deliver and guide us.
This semester has been going way better. Academically, mentally, emotionally, and I’ve learned to really appreciate the things in my life. The people, the memories, the good times and bad. I am thankful for everything and everyone that supports me, including you guys!
To conclude this post, I want to extend my gratitude to all those who read our blog post at Not Of The Norm. If you are struggling with negative thoughts and mixed feelings, I pray that God gives you clarity and that you may be able to focus on being lead by His spirit. I appreciate you all!